Closet Files: Puffer Vest

Do you ever have outfits that you LOVE in real life that do not translate well on photos. This is that outfit for me. So frustrating!!! I love the puffer. It was so comfy and it was perfect to wear on a not super cold, not super warm type of day. I wore this out while running a few errands and hanging with my mom. I feel like it was a pretty laid back outfit for a pretty laid back day. I just hate how the photos turned out.
Until Next Time,
The Happy Healthy Whole Girl.

Vest: Lane Bryant (Circa 2008)
Scarf: Wet Seal (I think. It's really old!)
Tee: Old Navy
Black Tank: DEB'S
Dress Jeans: Cato's
Shoes: Romans
Necklace: Forever 21
Socks:?

Closet Files: Coat Wear

I LOVE COATS!!! Lately it hasn't been as cold as normal in Illinois, but I was finally able to pull out my coats a few weeks ago. I bought this coat last year and I have been wearing it like crazy. This coat has a military look and I really like the olive color. Are there any coat colors or styles you are loving this season?

Until Next Time.

The Happy Healthy Whole Girl.

Coat: Cato's
Jeggings: Cato's
Scarf and Boots: Old Navy Online

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Reader Thank You+Comments+New Followers+ Closet Files: First Day of School

As I talked about in my last post, last week was a CRAZY week for me! Thankfully things are for the most part back to normal. Here are a few photos of what I wore on my first day of classes this semester. I am short on words today but I want to give a huge thank you to my new followers! It means a lot to me. Also, to you lovely ladies who have been leaving comments, I will be sure to respond soon! I am catching up on comments slowly but surely. Sometimes it takes me a while to respond because I like to really take my time and give a good response.Thanks again for taking the time to visit my blog and helping to make my blogging dreams come true.
Until Next Time.
XOXO,
Myah

 

Boots: Old Navy Online
Jeggings: Cato's
Top: Cato's
Earrings: Gifted (Wet Seal???)

Closet Files: Crazy Pink Scarf and Lousy Bank Issues

I've had a heck of a week ladies! Last Wednesday, I checked my bank account online and noticed some weird activity. I had a few bills that I'd paid that were never withdrawn from my account. When I contacted my bank they said nothing was wrong. So I contacted the companies to see what the problem was and they said it was the bank. Apparently my bank account was frozen! When I contacted the bank for a second time to see why my account was frozen they had no record of my account being frozen! The bills that I paid (mostly online) we simpling floating. UUHHHHHH, so frustrating!!!! But this morning, my last check finally cleared and now my life is semi back to normal. The stress of my weird money situation and the start of school this week pretty much sucked the energy out of me. Hopefully you ladies had a much less complicated week than I did.
Until Next Time.
XOXO,
Myah

Scarf: Charlotte Russe
Black Tee: Old Navy
Purple Vest: DEBS
Jeans: Cato's
Boots: Romans
Earrings: Cato's

Thoughts: The Enemy Of Best

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For most of my life I have struggled with living in the present. I’m the queen of “I’ll do it better next time” or “next year when I’m skinner, richer, prettier, wittier things will be better.” I know that my inability to live in the moment, at any given time, has cost me many fun, exciting opportunities because I was so focused on living in the future or waiting until my life was better (i.e. until I was thinner, prettier, richer, etc.) to enjoy myself.

I haven’t made a lot of so called “big” mistakes in my life. I wasn’t a girl who got pregnant in high school or who got so drunk at a party that I did something I regretted. I wasn’t a serial dater; I didn’t drop out of college to pursue some ambitious dream only to discover that that was a mistake.

BUT….

I was the girl who didn’t go out for cheerleading.  I wanted to be a cheerleader, badly. But I didn’t go out for the team because my “friend” at the time told me that “girls like us weren’t cheerleaders.” I believed that lie through high school, until it was too late to try out for the team.

I was the girl who didn’t have a date to prom. My junior year nobody asked me. Nobody. I had to go with my BFF at the time ( because her 22 year old boyfriend wouldn’t take her). What’s weirder is I was on prom court and was still single at prom. Senior year, one guy asked me three weeks before the dance. I already had a dress picked out. I think he thought he was going to get laid if I went with him; that was a no-go. It still bothers me that no one asked me (the right way or should I say for the right reasons). Should I have asked someone? I’ve always believed that wasn’t lady like. When I think of my 16 and 17 year old self I feel sorry for her.

I was the girl who quit cross country after sophomore year. I loved running. Like, LOVED IT. I could run in the blazing hot sun. I could run when it was cold out. I loved the adrenaline rush. And I loved what it did to my body. I was my fittest as a cross country runner. I quit, not because I suddenly turned lazy or because I didn’t like the sport any longer; I quit because I wasn’t the best on the team and I was tired of always being reminded that I was slow, chubby, etc.

I was the girl who struggled with depression for six and half years.  From the time that I was fifteen until I was almost twenty-two I struggled heavily with depression. I didn’t like who I was. I didn’t like what I looked like. I gained 115 pounds during this time. I contemplated suicide. I robbed myself of  half of my teen years and part of my early twenties. I didn’t enjoy anything. I spent my time on the internet looking at Myspace and Facebook profiles of people who I thought were cool, or who had amazing lives, or who were acceptable. I robbed myself of some of the most care-free years of my life. Though I know that my depression was for the most part out of my hands, I still wish….

When I was 15, I was diagnosed with a fairly rare skin condition called Dermatographic Urticaria. The condition is stress induced and is only caused and can only be controlled by working on my stress levels. I will never forget what my doctor told me the day I was diagnosed. He said “young lady, do you know what the enemy of best is?” I shook my head no. He leaned in close and looked me in the eye and said “Better.”

And Better has been my problem for years.

Better is why I couldn’t enjoy the present. I had to live in the future to cope. You see in my present was addiction, and lack of money, and broken relationships, and weight problems. I thought I had to live in the future because the future was better.

And now, I don’t know what it is like to live in the now. Everyday I’m working on it, but my mind is usually living in the future or regretting the past. “If I could go back,” something I’ve been hearing myself say way too often, lately. “If I could go back I would… try out for cheerleading… have a date for prom…. never have quit cross country….  given depression the finger.”  But alas, I can’t go back. And though my regrets may seem trivial to some, in many ways they are quite painful to me.  But what I don’t want, what I desperately don’t want is to spend the next two, five, or fifty years of my life living so far in the future I forget the present exist. I want to be here, right now! I want to love these moments. I want to find the beauty in something new every single day that I’m here. I want to embrace spontaneity. I want to enjoy solitude. I want to look at the constants in my life and appreciate them. I want to believe that right now is the best, and forget about the possibility of better.

Yeah, that sounds about right.

Until Next Time.

XOXO,

Myah

Closet Files: Stripes and Ikat

My scarf is one of those pieces that in person looks absolutely incredible. It's an Ikat print and I absolutely love it! I'm  also a huge fan of stripes. When it came to pairing a simple outfit I immediate went for my favorite pieces. My green shirt is one of my favorites because it is really soft and comfy, covers my booty (so it can be worn with pocket-less bottoms. I never wear pocket-less bottoms without a long top because I don't like how they look) and goes really well with nearly anything. Who knew that olive green was so versatile! I also reached for my favorite jeggings and favorite black boots. It was the perfect outfit to wear for running errands. Happy Tuesday to all of my lovely readers! For those of you who are working you're nearly half way through the week so hang in there! I have my own business(es) so almost all of my work is done from home and I am a student. Next week school starts and though I'm not dreading it, I'm certainly not jumping for joy. I still have so many things I wanted to accomplish before classes start. The great thing is that I am only taking two classes to allow for more time to spend on my businesses and to enjoy my graduate program. So my course load shouldn't be too intensive.
Until Next Time.
XOXO,
Myah

Jeggings, Green Top, Earrings: Cato's
Striped Cardi: Forever 21
Scarf: Charlotte Russe

Closet Files: The Worst Shoes for Snow.... and Dog Walking.... and Mud.

 After going to the gym and eating breakfast I went to a family friends house to do a little dog walking. Recently, our family friend became ill and I've been helping out by walking her two dogs and doing light cleaning. I have pet sat her two Bichon's many times and even though I love them to pieces they definitely have minds of their own. I didn't have any other plans after dog walking so I wanted to keep my outfit fairly casual. I have a favorite pair of flats that I love to wear during the warmer months. Today I decided to bring them out and pair them up with a pair of dressy socks. It made for a cute, cozy outfit, but the shoes were horrible to walk two feisty, pint sized dogs in. On top of that, two weeks ago we had a snow storm and now we have melting snow everywhere (and tons of mud); also a terrible combo. I've included a photo at the end of this post of my shoes. They are dirty from the snow and mud which is really embarrassing, but I figured you all would want to see the shoes this post was about.

Until Next Time.

XOXO,

Myah

Jeans, shoes, headband- Cato's
Sweater- Old Navy (online only)
Scarf- Old Navy (online and in store)
Belt: Forever 21
Socks- ????

Closet Files: I Love Sleep, Just Not At Night.

Does anyone else feel like they've been bit with the insomnia bug? I wrote a book over the summer (that will be published in October of this year!!!) which meant I stayed up and wrote all hours of the night. There were days when I would be up all night long and wouldn't lay down until 7 or 8 am. Even though it's been over six months since I completed the first draft of  my book, my schedule has still not changed. During the school year this past semester, it was usual for me to be awake at 3 or 4 in the morning. I was attempting to restructure my sleep schedule during Christmas break, but that hasn't happened. Instead, I've been working through the night and sleeping, sometimes until 1 or 2 in the afternoon. It helps that I'm back on my workout ban wagon, which means I'm up and at the gym at 8:30 am (okay, okay so this week it was more like 10:45 am). Alas, here I am, writing to you late at night. Well, that's enough of my rant. Hopefully you get more sleep at night than I do.
Until Next Time.
XOXO,
Myah

Black Tee- Old Navy
Leopard Tee- Forever 21
Lace Purse- Cato's
Jeans- Cato's
Boots- Romans
Earrings- Cato's

Closet Files: A Little Sleepy

I may be short on words for a few days. My mind is still on vacation brain. I can't believe I have to go back to school in two weeks. YIKES! My classes look pretty awesome so  I can't complain. Since finals, I've been trying to relax but I use my breaks to do all of the things I don't have time to do during the school year.  I'm tired because I feel like I've been working the entire time.  Anyway here, is my OOTD. I will be adding more of the new elements to the blog ( that I mentioned in this post) very soon.
Until Next Time.
XOXO,

Myah

 Scarf and boots: Old Navy
Jeans, Tee and earrings: Cato's

Closet Files: Happy New Year!!!

We made it to 2013, which can only mean one thing......

..... We survived the apocalypse (again).
Happy New Year!!!
Dress, Black Tee, Scarf- Old Navy
Earrings: Cato's
Boots: Romans
Black Leggings: ?